Sad Sleep Walk

So ....I am up.
I am waiting for the morning , because I am going to the doctor first thing. 
This sinus thing has turned into a bad thing.  I tried to beat it on my own, but I give up.
 Now, even  my ears hurt.

OK...Blogettes
With Febru-scary coming....as always, I am doing something really whacko....but in this case..... smart.
I have had a lot of sleepless nights thinking of this.
Hell .....I coulda had lots of 12 hour shifts done, tallied,  and paid for at the hospital for all the nights I have been up worrying.
Crap.
As you all know, I opened a yarn shop with hopes of a better life.
Well, I have been happy, but way more stressed.....so really not that happy, because I am stressed. lol
It would be a fun adventure if I didn't feel like I was financially hurting my family.
The shop has kind of turned into a nice cozy yarn shop that a lot of people are using as a hangout and thinking that the yarn is just for decoration.
I have to sell yarn to pay bills, and I am just not selling enough yarn.....period
I could go on about the customer base and the things that I am trying to overcome, but you would be bored.
I am not a fool,  and I will only go so far.
Anyhoo......I am going back to work at the sickly house,  because that  is what  I have to do.
I will be either reducing the store hours, and still try to do both...or I will just have a huge closing sale and be on my merry way...and probably have a shit load of yarn stashed somewhere for the rest of my life.
They say a new business has to have a couple of years  to get going, but with all the tax changes and the economy...I think there is no need to prolong the pain.
I am disappointed, but I knew it was a risk.  I planned on failure,  just as much as I planned on a success.
I was hoping for a success.
I am not embarrassed...I learned a lot about opening a business
This is a tough market and a tough crowd here in Crumble Town.
I had yarn that these peeps haven't had in these parts , ever .....and they continue to go to Hobby Lobby, WalMart......or just go to other yarn shops, somewhere else, and talk about it on my cute green couches, whilst eating my candy and giving me suggestions, as they knit or crochet with their Red Heart yarn.   sigh
I have learned a lot about friendship this year, as well.  What you think is your best, doesn't mean they think that you are their best.
I  do have some totally loyal friends, that I know will support me and continue to get together for laughs, fun, knitting and crochet.  They have shared this whole yarn shop thing and this grand baby stuff with me .  I love them for sticking with me and never giving up on me, even though ...I kinda gave up about a month ago.
I guess the puzzle box I was talking about a couple of blogs ago is a good indication of how I kind of
feel.
I am taking one day at a time and I am excited about my grandson, Max.   He is so cute. 
I am going to rack this up as an effort in life that I tried, because I wanted to.  
Now that is being free and living......in my opinion.